边缘

说不寂寞是假的，
有时在这城市里，
一个人地遛达，
心里也满不是滋味

一个人也几年了，
也许习惯了，
但在累的时候
还是想
有个人
能在家
等着我回去

不是爱挑剔
只是
很多时候
爱来得真的不是时候

you will never know how disappointed i am now....
Been humiliated but yet forgive, yet need to faced a huge insult like this....
Helpless, definitely it was very helpeless, but what to do?
No one can giving their hand and i'm the only one have to face it.

开心，吗？

现在，我只能在远远地
观望着你，关心你。
从来没想过
我们的关系会变得那么地糟糕
明白了
经过了数周的时间
明白了
尽管有千万个理由想要和你和好如初
但你的一个理由
足以把我给打倒
一段以逝的感情
确实很难再收回
最重要
你开心
就好

forget the pass, and move forward

Just met a knowledgeable and experienced person yesterday in my previous job office.
We have a long chat and yet for the 2 hours, what he told me was totally impressed me.

something BIG BIG BIG were across my mind in this two days and all it's about the career and personal development.
Many of the things he been told me that it never come across to my mind before,
A job can earned up to RM15k per month after few years which is can be get from my expertise.
Definitely it's was so amazing and shocked me cause I never ever think that can make money with such level!
Impressed me, and made me felt,
I'm rather dim about the purposes of my lives before.

What kind of life I've been gone through?
I live my life for others, sacrifice everything for other, and do nothing for myself...
When is the time i request for some rewards, "calculative", "childish" and "emotional" & etc stamped on me.

Give more, expect less...
I did applied it but things come different to me.

Times to say goodbye to "Tiny Me" and say hi to "Big Me" on 2012!

2011 review

2011, A brand new year for me definitely. I spent the last day of 2011 at home, passing it peacefully & with mind of appreciation on whatever i get...
In short, 2011 i gone through:
A lecturing job which i never experienced before. And yet, I'am resigned from the position before and now was unemployed.
I meet a group of nice friends whose always be so so supportive and helpful, went through the bitter sweet with me.
My health alarm was on and yet, there is no solution yet because of certain reasons.... I hope i can get well soon, if possible....
A person so called as my buddy, joined in to my life. I hlping him all the way and be proud with his achievement now. He spent my half time for 2011.
A messed up relationship, i hope i meet the right one, at least now, trying process still on going. Never try, never know.
And blah blah blah......
my life on 2011 just so miserable, which is not yet reach my target.
Hope by the 2012, I can get my desirable job and earn more money. Have a better quality time. =)
Welcome 2012.

A belated birthday celebration

should i happy with the celebration?
Tried hard to ask myself forget everything and just be act normal, but indeed i couldn't make it.
i can't forgive what the fellow do on me yet i miss those moments we spent together.
nightmare and some miserable truths again & again play in my mind to warned me that same thing will be happen again by tonight.
Can i say, I don't want to celebrate it? =(

let it be

Times to the ending, everything finished since last week.
Whatever i can do, i had tried my best and complete it; bear with the ignorance and ego attitude. Finally, and congratulation to me, I had did a good job.

Everything i will just let it go, no matter how sad I am, how upset I am, things will never change too.

Let it be